Here we go!

Wow! Its been FOREVER!!It is Friday June 29th. Ive kind of neglected the hell out of this journal. Nobody really reads this journal so I never update. But this journal is now going to be used for a new purpose- after much debate in my little noggin Ive decided to do a cleansing, The Master Cleanse...Ive gained about 15 lbs. in the past couple of months, feel the most sluggish, tired and generally down in a long time. I have horrible insomnia one night and then sleep 20 hours the next. I keep telling myself Im going to eat healthy starting Monday, go to the gym religiously on the 1st of the new month, ride my bike tommorow, walk on the beach every morning, yadda, yadda... but I just... don't. I feel like I need something huge-- some kind of enormous starting point to really get me ready.Ive heard of this Master Cleanse in passing convesations here & there. How it's the new IT diet in L.A. or some hippy folk talking at a table Im serving. Most people lose 10-20 lbs.and gain back about 1/2 after the liquid diet portion is over. Im most nervous about the fact that I work alot- and laying laxative induced cable at the workplace is a huge phobia of mine! Altho what in the hell do I care- I'll be that stinky ass Kym server for 9 months. I wish there were someone here to do this with me, but seeing as alcohol isn't permitted I think that pretty much disqualifies all of my alcoholic friends and co-workers. Which brings up a huge concern for me- what will I ever do after work in place of my nightly glass of unwind-me-wine?! Not to mention the delicious post-work cig that accompanies that wine so well..?! ACK! So, Livejournal.. it's just you & me for a while. And for those of you that are reading this.. it may be brutal! Iv'e read some peoples personal journals while they're doing the cleanse and it certaintly gives meaning to the "cleansing" part of it. Yuck!So, I ordered the book and the maple syrup today- I figure I'll start after the 4th. That will be my last day of heavy drinking and I can eat the rest of the little bit of food in my house in the next couple days so it won't be a temptation during the fast. Until then- I have 5 days to eat like a little piglet :)Ive already polished off a Venti Iced coffee and bluberry muffin from Starbucks and a box of basil pasta ..woo-hoo!